John Cusack, Cadoo, and Babies

So I'm wishing people would update their blogs so I would have something new to read, and I realize that I haven't updated my own! So here we are... I'm watching "Say Anything" for the first time in too many years. Such an excellent movie. Jacob is pretending to play Cranium Cadoo. Jay is doing whatever he does on his computer. It's one of those days. Oh, and the baby is asleep and Annie is at Amanda's, so there ya go.

Did you ever have a problem that you didn't even understand? Like when someone is mad at you and you have no idea why or what to do about it? And why do people carry around all these issues and wait until one breakthrough moment when they just let loose with all of it at once? Couldn't we deal with things a little bit at a time? Less overwhelming that way, I think.

I feel like there is something I should be doing and am avoiding, but I honestly don't know what it is. I need to go buy cat food and juice, and there's a basket of laundry that requires folding, but these things really aren't a big deal... so what is it? I think I'm actually waiting for someone else to do something. Hm. I hate waiting for other people, I'm much too proactive for that.

I want to get pregnant again. Is that insane? I LOVE my little girl and am enjoying every moment of her infancy, and of course Jacob is my treasured angel, but I think I want to do this again, sooner rather than later. I know that part of it is that I grew up only 17 months apart from my little brother, and we were so close and took so much comfort in each other's company, I guess I want to give that gift to my children, too. And I'm not working anyway, so it's not like there's a huge financial impact immediately. We would need another bedroom, I guess that's really the biggest issue. Which is, of course, a very big issue! I don't know, I'm just thinking in print. I asked Jay and he's up for another one. We are a little nuts, I think, but it's cool.

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I hate waiting on other people